Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.
Psalm 139:23 NRSV
Grief is about searching and testing, even to the point of mental exhaustion. The mind is wondrously made to span beyond anything humanly imaginable. It has an endless reserve of untapped spiritual energy. On this day of rest for your soul, find “neutral” for your thoughts. Rest your mind. Drift. Float. Dream. Pray. Refresh.
God, you search me and know my heart. You test me and know my thoughts. My heart and mind seek only you on this day of rest. Amen.
I am at acceptance when I realize one day that I am no longer actively grieving.