At present all I know is a little fraction of the truth, but the time will come when I shall know it as fully as God now knows me!
1 Corinthians 13:12 JBP
What God desires when you grieve is loyalty that does not demand full understanding. God insists on your trust even when you do not know where your pain and sorrow are leading you. The complete truth about life and death, about the past and the present, is known only to God. God knows you fully; be fully present to God.
God, the past was then; the present is now. The complete picture of my life is known only to you. May I respond to your grace with loyalty and trust. Amen.
There is more to life than what I see.